CRUSH

All alone beside myself, inside myself, above myself

As these thoughts of you so near…linger, whispers in my ear

As the cool, damp breeze twists and lifts my hair into styles you’d call crazy

Crazy in a good way

Like the way you kiss me only when you’re in the mood

Crazy

Like the kisses, wouldn’t want to miss a minute that puts you in that place

Where you dare – lips to lips, cheek to cheek

Sixty seconds in a minute

Would not want to miss one with you in it

Especially when you smile sweetly

Sometimes like a little boy, hold you tight I’ll keep you warm

Others like a man with plans that me do not include – oh well

I am happy just playing a sexy song that reminds me of you

Of crazy

A good crazy

Like my hair as it is right now

Like my wishes that may not come true

All is good

Everything is good when it comes to you

Destroy

Destroy

We do

we try so hard

to fix the lies

DESTROY the truth

with alibies

We do

we will attempt

to blame

the ones

who understand

our game

                          What game?

                          “it’s a zoo out there”

We do

we hide

then try to be

the mystery

that they must see

                          What mystery?

We do

DESTROY who we

really are

with hopes

that no one sees

our scar

                          What scar?

The scar

That hurts

And begs

To be

DESTROYED forever

To

Be

Free

So maybe then

Just for today

DESTROY the thoughts

That beg to stay

You know those thoughts

That hurt inside

The thoughts destroyed

With alibies

Go on now

Set them free

There is so much

More

That

You

Can

Be

Crazy

CRAZY

Crazy

Or simply me

Hypnotic

Happy

Free

Ignoring all the stares

The laughter

And the whispers

Un-crazy people

Direct at me

While…

They talk unapologetically

About the weather

The news

Political issues

Then,

On and on they chat

About what others wear

And do

And say

All the while hiding who

They really are

I don’t think they know anyway

Small talk isn’t me

Nothing to discuss today

Nothing deep anyway

I like to dance

Along the street

Hug a tree

Wave at strangers

Open doors

Change my mind

Then open more

Throw my hands

Up in the air

Wave them at the moon

The sun

This is who I like to be

This is how I am

The crazy person in the mirror

The crazy things I say and do

The part of me

That doesn’t care

About what’s right

Or wrong

To you

un-crazy people

wish they were more like me

do you agree?

Do yourself a favor

Dare to be a little

Crazy

For a day

Vain

VAIN

Appearance is illusion

Do you know?

Do you remember?

Do you care?

Technology teaches us

to post illusion

our best pics

our best days

Only this may you see

Only this part of me

My shadows I keep hidden

Skeletons in my closet

Behind the pictures I will hide

I am safe there

Been hidden for so long

No longer sure where I belong

Who are you?

Are you vain?

Are you insane?

Your appearance an illusion

Do you care?

What I want is for you

To believe

That I know

Who

I

Am

I feel better

Showing you

The best parts of me

Only this may you see

Am I vain?

Am I your illusion?

Are you mine?

I wish it were about the pictures, the illusions we create

But its not

                                                Thank God!